So, in case you guys didn’t know, not that it would matter to you all or have a staggering effect in your life or actually, I don’t think there would be any way for you all to know so I’m just going to go ahead and say it, I am bisexual. There. And you can go ahead and judge me, but don’t tell me (if you’re a girl) that you don’t get a little curious about women sometimes. But you know, if you don’t get curious about women, you’re probably a prude. No I’m kidding. That was a joke.
But anyway, I met this girl a couple of weeks ago (a month ago) and we’ve been getting to know each other and really connecting, then you know, she asked me out (of course I said yes). Honestly, I’ve never been committed to anyone (no, I’m not a slut). It’s because commitment scares the daylights out of me, but when I met her, for the first time in my life, I wanted to be with someone (in a committed relationship-y way). I don’t know if its love at first sight or if I’m falling in love, but I’m crazy about her. She completes me and I think that I complete her. Honestly, I’ve never felt so comfortable around anyone. With her it’s really different. I feel at home. It’s weird, really weird (in a good way).
I’ve never so openly given my heart to anyone. I’ve always had trust issues and I’ve always had trouble letting people in. It took my best friends about 5 years to really earn my trust (I know, my friends are so damn patient and amazing), but it took her a few weeks, a few moments to just capture my heart (Oh god, I’m in trouble). I cannot describe how she is my everything and how much I love her. She just fits me perfectly and I fit her (maybe too perfect?). But I’ll leave my doubt and insecurities aside as my love for her and her love for me go beyond all logic and reason. Hell, I can’t even think straight when I’m around her (get it? we’re both girls, and I can’t think “straight”? No? Okay.) She is just amazing. I love her. I love you.
I’ve never been happier.